Going to the Chapel

I've had some interesting dreams recently, so I was inspired to return. It may not last long, though. Last night, I dreamed that I was in a picturesque little New England looking area, in a bright white church. I was with a man I was very much in love with. I had those feelings, really strong love and attraction and happiness. We were walking around, hand in hand, and he was telling me that he had arranged for us to be married in this church, and all the preparations were in order. I was excited and happy and feeling secure, but not entirely sure that I wanted to, there was some little doubt that sprang up once I had adjusted to the initial idea. But overall, I was really excited to be around him. We were walking around the side of the church, in between the church and an old pick up things got sexy, and i was talking dirty to him, and the look of desire on his face was so intense, and I wrapped my arms around his neck and we kissed, but both knew nothing had to happen then. We continued to walk hand in hand, excited about the future, and excited to be in love. We went into another building in the immediate area, and watched people preparing for the wedding, and I realized that I should be getting ready. I asked someone, and they confirmed that the wedding was going to be in about an hour, and I knew it was going to be close as to whether I could get ready in time. That's when the thing changed for me. I turned back to my guy, and he was a different guy. He looked like a guy I barely knew, and wasn't that into. I recognized him as the same guy, but the doubt that had started earlier came in full force. I started thinking about my life, and how he would fit into my life. I wondered if he knew my kids, if they got along, what that was going to be like. So I started to question him about this, and it turned out to be something that we had never talked about. Then I realized that I hadn't told my boyfriend. I thought it was probably ok, but surely I should tell him before. So I started talking to this guy I was supposed to marry about whether I should tell me boyfriend now, or if I should wait until after the ceremony. I woke up thinking, "Huh?"