love

Alcohol induced dreams to follow:

I was at the alma mater, walking through the computer lab. I saw my old crush (from work) and while he was there on business, he kept me hanging around instead of sending me on my way, like I expected. He was touching my hands and hugging me, and I was very happy to be there with him. It got to be night, and we were out front of the university, and the moon was shining brightly, and we were slow dancing on the university lawn. It was so beautiful, and there was water trickling around us in little features. We were both supposed to be somewhere else, but it didn't matter. We stopped dancing, and he told me that he'd been thinking of me and how I told him that the biggest mistake I had ever made was letting him go, and he said that had moved him, and he wanted to be with me. I was ecstatic. Even better, then we spent the night together.

Part two of the dream involved telling the housekeeper the news. He had moved in with three white trash people and their kids in a broken down trailer. I stopped by, expecting to tell him that I was for sure done, moving on, and as I sat with him, waiting for a good moment to break the news, he somehow realized that he was still in love with me, and didn't want to live with the trailer trash, but wanted to live with me instead. This caused me a little consternation, because I didn't want him. I mean, I was hopeful when he said this, but then my brain said, look where he's living, and he'll still have the same issues with sex. I told him about the sex issue, and he started having sex with me, but in some new way that involved no actual body contact, and that was all in the mind. I could feel him inside of me, but it was some kind of projected idea, and he was very proud that he could do it while being on the other side of the house. Which he did to demonstrate, while the two bleach blond trailer women gave pointers. I tried to explain that sex wasn't about long distance mind tricks, and he didn't understand. Then, he kept trying to get his stuff together, and was talking about moving out with me. He was getting all his stuff together, and making plans, and I went out to the car. More trailer people were out there, and not wanting me to go, but I tricked them, and jumped in my car, locked the doors, and took off, giving them the finger as I left.